Self care is something I’ve only recently indulged in. It’s something I feel like I deserve now, rather than something I can do if I have time. I go to bed early, I read before sleeping, I relax for longer periods of time. I take Saturday’s entirely for myself. I guess I don’t push myself as hard anymore. This is becoming a problem. While self care should come before all other things, I find it hard to justify it when I’m not getting results in school. To go to bed early, 10 pm, means I end up neglecting other things. I might not finish my homework, or only partially finish it. I might only scan reading instead of analyzing it. I leave it all for the next day. While I have a two hour break in the day, it’s not enough to finish all my homework. It’s barely enough time to get really started on anything. Ends are not meeting. I don’t want to stay up later to finish everything if that means I’m going to feel worse in the morning. It’s a negatively fed loop. I all ready do not feel as confident in my studying as I need too. Midterms are coming up. I have an exam on Monday, a test to do over the weekend, and a paper to write on Monday. I’m just stressing out over. I’m taking more classes than normal. Six classes or 18 credits. The normal is 12-15 credits, 4-5 classes. I want to stop and take a deep breath but becoming idle is making me anxious. There is always the looming migraine on the horizon. Ends are not meeting and I am thinking when they do, when I start sacrificing sleep for homework, a migraine is going to come crashing through and break the functional medium.